RAMBLINGS....

Spent the weekend in the country with the hubby, and what a beautiful weekend. Our first homestudy appointment is scheduled, and we will be off to Kansas in a couple weeks for our next appointment. We have started the second online class, keeping busy, busy, busy, and there is so much more to do. I just keep telling myself one step at a time. Received J's passport this weekend one item to check off the to do list.

The second online course has me thinking about loss.... It says we will all go through some sort of loss in the adoption process, the child, the adoptive parents. Maybe I'm looking through rose colored glasses but I don't feel a sense of loss because I can't have children of my own, or that my child wont have my genes, my eyes, or my hands. (Sure at the age of 18 when I found out that I may never have children I was saddened, and after J and I married we tried for several years to get pregnant, but it did not happen for us. We tried the drugs for awhile which sent me into emotional fits of who knew what. Everyday was a new emotion, but in the end we decided that we had enough trying and decided to live our life and let what was to be be... I just have to say I have the most amazing husband ever!) All I think about is what my child will have.. they may not have my eyes, nose, hands but they will have my expressions crinkle their nose the way I do, or gesture with their hands like me. I wonder will they be contemplative like me.... will they enjoy to read like me.... or will they have J's strength of character... his sense of self.... they may not be skin of my skin... but they will have my heart...

Shaanti

That which consumes me...

Our checklist has arrived we have started working on our dossier, our homestudy application is in and approved. Should be hearing from our agent in about a week to start our homestudy. So much to do and so little time to do it in, my world is consumed with certified copies of this and certified copies of that... letters from doctors... references... etc etc etc.. Keep it all organized make sure to make two copies of everything... So much to read and understand. I have to keep reminding myself one step at a time, try not to rush don't want to miss anything. Enjoy the process that is what I keep telling myself. The hubby has been great running here and there following up on things he keeps me grounded.

Finished our first online adoption course that makes me feel accomplished, now getting ready to start the next online course. Even with all the chaos life is good!!!

Shaanti

A day of Rememberance and a day of Blessings

9/11 is a day of rememberance for us remembering those who perished in the attacks on the World Trade Center and their families. Now in our household it is also a day of blessing, our contract was received and our file opened we received our notification today. We now move on to the next step completing our dossier for Nepal. We are ready for this journey..... I dream of the day I meet our son....

I would like to take this time to thank the men and women who serve our country and protect our freedoms bless them and their families.

Shaanti

The waiting has just begun

It is a joyous day in our household... finally we have received the funding to start our adoption process, it is so hard to believe it took this long for one simple check. We have been waiting nearly 4 weeks, but learning patience in the early stages of things is more than likely a good thing. We will be sending our application to Texas tomorrow of course next day air, and shortly after that we will receive our checklist for putting our dossier together for Nepal. I am very excited to get the paperwork portion started and the home study scheduled. We know this is going to be a wonderful, crazy, emotional journey and we are going to enjoy every process.

I have decided to take a course in Nepali to learn the language to the best of my ability... Namaste (hello or goodbye), and Dhanyabaad (Thank you). I hope to have my course in hand in a few weeks. I have found a couple books I want to read some on the Nepal culture, and some on adoption. I will have lots of paperwork to keep me busy but I want to make sure that I stay busy hopefully it will help the time pass. I read on a blog today about some families that are in Nepal now to pick up their child I wish them a safe and joyous journey, and dream of the day that we will be there doing just the same.

Shaanti (Peace)

As I go along and research about Nepal, I am finding that I am falling in love with this beautiful country. I have found one blog that I must mention Maggie Doyne's blog, what an amazing young woman who is making a difference in the lives of children in Nepal. You can see her blog and read about Kopila Valley Children's Home in Surkhet, Nepal at maggiedoyne.squarespace.com it's amazing what one person can accomplish when they let their heart lead the way.

Not much to really talk about right now, everything is a waiting game. We are still preparing with the online classes much to read and learn. I try to keep up on the news in Nepal, but try not to let the political situation at this time sway our choice of country. I am taking this time to learn more about the Nepal culture, what a beautiful country, so much to learn!

Benefit Yard Sale

Okay the Benefit Yard Sale has been scheduled we are going to be at the T.O.C.O.A. building in Troy from 7am to 4pm. We hope to have lots of goodies for sale, we will also have hamburgers, hot dogs, chips, soda, and water to purchase for a nice lunch with us. Hope to see you there!!!

Thanks again to all of those who have donated and offered to donate, your generosity is appreciated... I can never say it enough we do have the best friends and family!!!!